Quotes By Betting on the Muse: Poems and Stories

“The Laughing Heart

your life is your life
don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.
be on the watch.
there are ways out.
there is a light somewhere.
it may not be much light but
it beats the darkness.
be on the watch.
the gods will offer you chances.
know them.
take them.
you can’t beat death but
you can beat death in life, sometimes.
and the more often you learn to do it,
the more light there will be.
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
in you.”


“a good book
can make an almost
impossible
existence,
liveable

( from 'the luck of the word' )”


“It is possible to be truly mad and to still exist upon scraps of life.”


“I was only photographing in words the reality of it all.”


“how can you be true and
kind at the same
time?

how?”


“most days go
nowhere
but the avoidance
of pain and
dissolution are
lovely.”


“You were destroyed by what you befriended.”


“the people are the biggest
horror show on earth,
have been for
centuries.”


“sleeping in the rain helps me forget things like I am going to
die and you are going to die and the cats are going to die
but it's still good to stretch out and know you have arms
and
feet and a head, hands, all the parts, even eyes to close
once
more, it really helps to know these things, to know your
advantages
and your limitations, but why do the cats have to die, I
think that the
world should be full of cats and full of rain, that's all, just
cats and
rain, rain and cats, very nice, good
night.”


“Don't you go to the movies?"
"Mostly just to eat popcorn in the dark.”


“I could never accept
life as it was,
I could never gobble
down all its
poisons
bu there were parts,
tenuous magic parts
open for the
asking.”


“I can see where
creation often
stops while the
body still lives
and often
does not care
to.

the death of life
before life
dies.”


“I knew exactly what I
was doing: I was
doing nothing.
because I knew there
was nothing
to do.”


“then sit down and write
or stand up and
write
but write
no matter what
the other people are
doing,
no matter what
they will do to
you.”


“a life can change in a tenth of
a second.
or sometimes it can take
70
years.”


“I am a joke told
again.”


“your best men are
drunks and your worst men are
locking them
up,
your best men are killers and
your worst men are
selling them
bullets”


“anything,
compared to the people,
is a foundation worth
searching for.

anything.”


“I went into the men's room and stared in the mirror at my face in disgust. I looked like I knew something, but it was a lie, I was a fake and there's nothing worse in the world than when a man suddenly realizes and admits to himself that he's a phoney, after spending all his time up to then trying to convince himself that he wasn't. I stared at all the sinks and pipes and bowls and I felt like them, worse than them: I'd rather be them.”


“gratuitous masturbation
of the
psyche.”


“(the whole world is at the
throat of the world,
everybody feels angry,
short-changed, cheated,
everybody is despondent,
disillusioned.)

I welcomed shots of
peace, tattered shards of
happiness.”


“shot in the eye
shot in the brain
shot in the ass
shot like a flower in the dance

amazing how death wins hands down
amazing how much credence is given to idiot forms of
life

amazing how laughter has been drowned out
amazing how viciousness is such a constant

I must soon declare my own war on their war
I must hold to my last piece of ground
I must protect the small space I have made that has
allowed me life

my life not their death
my death not their death

this place, this time, now
I vow to the sun
that I will laugh the good laugh once again
in the perfect place of me
forever.

their death not my life.”